Maurizio Bianchi & Land Use - "Psychoneurose" CD 2005



Maurizio Bianchi (born 4 December 1955) is an Italian pioneer of industrial music, originating from Milan. Bianchi was inspired by the music of Tangerine Dream, Conrad Schnitzler and Throbbing Gristle. He wrote about music for Italian magazines before beginning to release his own cassettes under the name of Sacher-Pelz in August 1979. He released four cassettes as Sacher-Pelz before switching to his own name or simply "MB" in 1980. Bianchi corresponded with many of the key players in the industrial music and noise music scenes including Merzbow, GX Jupitter-Larsen, SPK, Nigel Ayers of Nocturnal Emissions and William Bennett of Whitehouse. After this exchange of letters and music, his first LPs were released in 1981. Symphony For A Genocide was released on Nigel Ayers' Sterile Records label after Bianchi had sent Ayers the money to press it. Each track on the LP was named after a Nazi extermination camp. The cover featured photographs of the Auschwitz Orchestra, a group of concentration camp prisoners who were forced to play classical music as people were herded into the gas chambers. The back cover included the text "The moral of this work: the past punishment is the inevitable blindness of the present".

Also in 1981 William Bennett offered Bianchi a record contract which Bianchi signed unchecked. It was based on a "joke contract" that Steven Stapleton of Nurse With Wound had sketched. The contract assumed all rights to Bianchi's work. After delivery of the tapes Bennett edited-in speeches by Nazi leaders, and instead of the relatively unsensational name MB, it was published under the alias Leibstandarte SS MB, named after the SS unit that worked as bodyguards to Adolf Hitler. By 1983 Bianchi had become a Jehovah's Witness. At the end of 1983 he announced his withdrawal from music, stating "The end is very near, and we have a very short time to recognise our mistakes and to redeem ourselves...I stopped doing music, and now my life is going towards its full awareness".

In 1998, encouraged by Alga Marghen label head Emanuele Carcano, who offered him a label of his own, Maurizio Bianchi resumed making music. The label was EEs'T Records, through which he released new editions of old MB albums and many new recordings. Bianchi then proceeded to work on over a hundred new projects both solo or in collaboration with other Italian and international artists including Atrax Morgue, Aube, Francisco López, Mauthausen Orchestra, Merzbow, Ryan Martin and Philip Julian/Cheapmachines. He has worked with labels Dais Records, the Carrboro, Hot Releases, and the Italian Menstrual Recordings to re-release some of his out-of-print material. On August 19, 2009, for unspecified personal reasons, Bianchi decided again to completely stop making music. This decision was soon after reversed.

Nazi UFO Commander - "Strange Monasteries" CDR 2006 & "Radiant Entropie" CD 2008



"Strange Monasteries is the initial communication to the fractured hive mind extant on this planet. This is Stage 1: Putrefaction. Only a small percentage of the population is capable of being hardlinked into the Greater Vision and Voice, because only they have had the Eruption of the Unconscious into the Sphere of Consciousness. Transmitting from Neuschwabenland South, Nazi UFO Commander is conjuring out of the chaos of space, radio waves and electronics a catalyst that will reunify the dissociated conscious by re-encoding imprints through sustained and attentive listening. In order to affect this reunification, the recording must be listened to in its entirety. Radiant Entropie is the second and final transmission from Nazi UFO Commander, a last warning from beyond to the hive mind extant on this planet. Finally revealed and clarified: the secrets of Neuschwabenland, Aldebaran and 'the Reclamation', set to a martial ambience. Feast on the crumbs, as the Commander has embarked upon a journey from which He will not return until the rest of us have long passed on."

"In ufology, conspiracy theory, science fiction, and comic book stories, claims or stories have circulated linking UFOs to Nazi Germany. The German UFO theories describe supposedly successful attempts to develop advanced aircraft or spacecraft prior to and during World War II, and further assert the post-war survival of these craft in secret underground bases in Antarctica, South America, or the United States, along with their creators. Accounts appear as early as 1950, likely inspired by historical German development of specialized engines. Elements of these claims have been widely incorporated into various works of fictional and purportedly non-fictional media, including video games and documentaries, often mixed with more substantiated information."

"According to a 1979 interview, serial killer Richard Chase ('The Vampire of Sacramento') believed that Nazi UFOs had extorted him into committing murder under threat to his own life. Chase further claimed that prison officials in league with the Nazis were poisoning his food, and he asked to be provided a radar gun with which he could apprehend his enemies."






Lille Roger - "For Life" Tape 1985


'Lille Roger' was the second solo project of Roger Karmanik (after 'Bomb The Daynursery', and overlapping his time in 'Enhänta Bödlar'). The style was raw, mid-fi, pure-industrial and rhythmic noise. The final release, 'Undead', was also the very first for his Cold Meat Industry label.

Lethal Mutant Plasmid King - 1991 Demo (320)


Cyber-psych/noisegrind Candiru. U-L-T-R-A W-E-I-R-D!!!

Cycotic Youth - 1986 Demo


If you keister balloons of grey heroin for old men with tits, this is your soundtrack...


    

Necronomicon Comps 1-4 1984-1987 6xTapes (320 From FLAC, With Scans)


¡¡¡🤯Mierda esos pantalones🤯!!!



Muslimgauze - "Opaques" Cassette 1983, "Kabul" LP 1983, "Buddhist On Fire" LP 1984, "Hunting Out With An Aerial Eye" 12" 1984, "Blinded Horses" LP 1985, Live 3-20-1986, "Abu Nidal" LP 1987, "Hamas Arc" CD 1993, "Veiled Sisters" 2xCD 1993, "Lo-Fi India Abuse" CD 1999 (Mostly 320)



Muslimgauze was the main musical project of Bryn Jones (June 17 1961 - January 14 1999), a British ethnic-experimental musician who was influenced by the history of the Muslim world, often with an emphasis on the Israeli–Palestinian conflict. He was exceptionally prolific in his work, creating nearly 2000 original compositions on over 90 releases (and still counting). The name Muslimgauze is a play on the word muslin (a type of medical wrapping). He first started in 1982 as 'E.g Oblique Graph' on Kinematograph, his own imprint, and the independent co-op label 'Recloose Organisation'. Though constantly recording, he released his earliest albums just once per year (this was due to an extreme scarcity in his financial resources at the time). Eventually he made inroads with emerging labels Staalplaat, Soleilmoon, and Extreme Records. He signed to Extreme first in 1991, which helped fund professional studio time and gained him access to improved distribution. Jones soon became frustrated with Extreme's slow release schedule, and in 1993 also signed with Soleilmoon and Staalplaat (who were more than willing to take on his ever increasing output). Jones additionally worked with nearly any small label that approached him. A major drawback to this was gratuitous editing by the labelheads, and excuses for late or missing royalties. This lack of monetary compensation was a source of ongoing stress throughout his career. On 30th December 1998, Jones was rushed to hospital in Manchester with a rare fungal infection in his bloodstream, for which he had to be heavily sedated. His body eventually shut down, and he died on 14th January 1999. Since his death at the age of 37, his music under Muslimgauze has continued to be released. He often inundated labels and collaborators with music, and consequently they had to be selective of what was eventually put out. Many labels, still including Soleilmoon and Staalplaat, continue to publish unreleased albums as well as his demos, reworked tracks, and abandoned full-length tapes. Jones' posthumous discography is known for including many studio variations of nearly all his music.

Muslimgauze's music is often difficult to describe due to sheer volume, content diversity, and often unique singular stylings. However, it is possible to describe common features of his music as he tended to use many of the same strategies, modified from album to album, to give each release a distinct feel or concept. The music is often heavily electronic and strongly rhythmic, tempos vary from very fast to very slow (if not outright ambient) making frequent use of gradually changing structures or melodic motifs. Two overviews of his discography described his style as 'ambience that is not so far removed from the likes of Godflesh or Scorn' and 'blended atmosphere and vocal samples almost turn his work into a soundtrack for a nonexistent film'.

"I would never go to an occupied land, others shouldn't. Zionists living off Arab land and
water is not a tourist attraction. To have been in a place is not important. So you can't be
against apartheid unless you have been in South Africa? You cannot be against the Serbs
killing Muslims in Bosnia unless you have been there? I think not."
--Bryn Jones

Nature And Organisation - "Third Terminal Position" Split Demo 1986, "Beauty Reaps The Blood Of Solitude" CD 1994, "Death In A Snow Leopard Winter" CD 1998 (CDs: 320, Tape: 128)



Interview by S. L. Weatherford & Raul Antony for Heathen Harvest 2015...

Heathen Harvest: Listening to your releases, you can hear the development of your sound from Bone Clinic to Nature and Organisation transition from experimental electronics to a more acoustic sound. Can you tell us about how that developed?

Michael Cashmore: Since I was around thirteen years old, I had an acoustic guitar. The first one I ever bought was from a friend of my brother’s for five pounds, it was 1977, punk had just begun in the UK, and I developed an interest to play. When I started Bone Clinic, I had been listening to Throbbing Gristle, reading William S. Burroughs, and was experimenting with tape loops, tape cut-ups, super 8mm film, and drum machines, and I came to a point where I felt a melodic element would add an emotional side to this experimental work, and then just bring more potency.

HH: What prompted you to revisit Nature and Organisation? The project has been held in high regard for quite some time, so why now?

MC: Well, it’s now been twenty-one years since Beauty Reaps the Blood of Solitude was originally issued in 1994. In the past, I’ve had quite a few offers to re-issue this and other Nature and Organisation material, but I just felt that now was a good time to make these recordings available again because the situation seemed right, and also because I know that people would like to own this material and are having to pay distorted prices to obtain the only copies available, which are from the original issue.

HH: Trisol has been mostly a Gothic/Darkwave label but seem to be bringing in more post-industrial music with Rome, Spiritual Front, and now Nature and Organisation. How did your partnership with Trisol develop?

MC: The head of the label, Alex Storm, sent me a message over Facebook saying that he was interested in re-issuing Nature and Organisation recordings on CD. Over time, we talked and made an agreement over how this could work, and I soon found out that not only was he a very nice, easy person to get on with, but that he was also a genuine fan of this work. It was clear that his main purpose for this idea was really because he had an emotional connection to the music, which made him the ideal person to finally re-issue these recordings. It was a perfect opportunity. He has been totally accommodating for me and made this reissue possible by giving me the freedom I needed to do it, that there were to be no deadlines, and that I could simply make the artwork and design ideas without any pressure. He was equally accommodating in allowing me to use ideas that increased manufacturing costs; nothing was a problem for him, and everything I wanted was available.

HH: I’ve always seen “Beauty Reaps the Blood of Solitude” as the culmination of the best elements of the World Serpent era of post-industrial. Looking back at it now, what are some of your favorite memories from that time?

MC: I spent a lot of time in the studio making that album. I had a job at the time, so I would sometimes go to the studio after work in the evenings or during the day on the weekends. I remember quite well sitting on a bus with a glöckenspiel in my bag and spending the evening adding it over a few basic tracks. It was recorded on three rolls of 2″ tape, which are really heavy. I often had to drag them from Birmingham down to London when I was recording vocals with David Tibet, Rose McDowall, Douglas P., and when I eventually mixed it with Steven Stapleton, so these times I remember a lot. It was exciting when vocals were added to the music tracks as they finally took shape and identity as songs—that was always rewarding. My best memory is probably when Steve and I had mixed the final track of the album after three days of mixing, and the album was finally finished.

HH: I understand that many years ago you had some challenges with confidence and depression, and some trouble getting the proper recognition with your work in other projects. How has that changed, if at all, since then? From a fan of the genre’s perspective, your name carries credibility that you can take to the bank, but I know that’s not always the case from within the mind and heart of the artist.

MC: I grew up in an average, working-class family, and this teaches you that a regular job earns you money, and things like art and music are hobbies and have nothing to do with earning money. I’ve carried this form of indoctrination all of my adult life, which means that I could possibly earn a living from music, but I don’t because I can’t see it as a reality. The thing about not being properly credited for what I’ve done in the past is to do with the problems that it creates. This makes it more difficult for the future as it lowers the opportunities available to push the boundaries of your possibility. For that reason, it came to be that what I’d done in the past was a negative for me and not a positive. The depression thing I’ve suffered with since my late teens. It comes and goes, sometimes with really long pauses in between, but then comes back with a sudden intensity as though it had never gone. I’m going through it again right now and it’s fucking awful, but I will get over it.

HH: Can we expect to hear some new recordings of your own? “Death in a Snow Leopard Winter” really showcased your solo talent and skill at composition, and we’d look forward to hearing you stand out on your own again.

MC: Thanks. Yes, I’d really like that too, and I also really need the challenge and excitement of it, but right now I’m too restless. I’m having too many issues with my psychological state, so I need to sort that out first before I can consider any new projects.

HH: What can you tell us about the Bone Clinic days? What was inspiring you to make music back then, and how different were you both as a musician and a person?

MC: Bone Clinic was myself and a friend, Neil Jones. He was one of the very few guys in my hometown who were listening to Throbbing Gristle, Psychic TV, Current 93, and Coil, and we became friends because of this connection. We were very unfocused in what we were doing—we were playing and recording together, mixing cut-up tape loops, vocals, bass, drum machines, and synthesizer to make collaged songs and also very simple songs with acoustic guitar. This was around 1982, I think, and after a year we changed the name to Nature and Organisation as we became more focused in what we were trying to do. I was different then: young, more idealistic, serious...not more obsessive than I am now, but more diverted away from what I really was inside as a person, I think. We played live a few times as Nature and Organisation in those days. I remember one time that we played a pub in Walsall called The Weatsheaf, it was upstairs and we had somehow fooled someone into letting us play as support to a local kind of pop group or something—posh kids. We turned up with a super 8mm film projector, an acoustic guitar, tape loops, a bass guitar, and a hammer each in our back pockets just in case it didn’t go down too well. After we started playing, the feedback from the guitar blew one of the PA speakers, and I had already put a hole into the snare of the drum kit of the main band, so we decided it would be a good time to end as the audience were getting pretty aggressive.

HH: Now with “Snow Leopard Messiah,” it’s clear that snow leopards represent something particularly special, even perhaps sacred for you. What is the meaning behind this creature’s reoccurrence in your music?

MC: I was walking around a zoo with a girlfriend in around 1996, I think, and when we turned a corner, I came almost face-to-face with a snow leopard behind a glass-fronted cage and I was instantly shocked by the extraordinary beauty and by the fact that I thought it was sitting directly in front of me, not behind glass. I studied its movements, its appearance and grace, and it lasted with me for weeks afterwards as a very potent image in my mind. So I don’t regard snow leopards as sacred or anything, and they have nothing to do with my music, but I just used images of them in artwork that I did at the time, and recently for Snow Leopard Messiah as an image I still associate with the time I recorded the albums.

HH: Some of the new photos that you’ve provided for us for this interview hint that you’ve entered (or have always been in) some form of psychedelic phase. If you choose to release new Nature and Organisation material beyond the current agreement with Trisol, will there be a new direction you take apart from older sounds in this direction?

MC: I am not planning to release any new material under the name Nature and Organisation in the future, maybe reissues of old material, or a DVD release of an old super 8mm film has been talked about. A psychedelic phase? Well, maybe somehow, but I never consider myself as part of any movement, genre, or anything like that. As I get older, I just feel that life can be more fun, interesting, and that it’s possible to experiment within oneself. I grew up in the middle of the sixties and the early seventies with the psychedelic sounds of music. The Beatles in their later I period I heard on the radio and television; I grew up surrounded by it, and then later the transgression of it through glam by Marc Bolan and David Bowie. I remember seeing the very first time that Bowie performed ‘Starman’ on Top of the Pops. It was revolutionary. I saw the original outfit he wore on the show at last year’s Bowie exhibition that was here in Berlin. I was desperate to touch it, but it was impossible. I did, however, touch the turquoise suit that he wore in the video for ‘Life on Mars’.

HH: Speaking of image, visuals of you in the past have been rather conservative and dressed-down. What has inspired you to change your appearance for this chapter of Nature and Organisation?

MC: This is not a new chapter for Nature and Organisation, but rather a new chapter for myself as a person. I wish to let go of old patterns, thoughts, and behaviours. I was very shy when I was younger, reserved even, but I wish to break out of that now that I’m older. I want to play more with identity, who I really am without the veils that we all hold up in front of ourselves.

HH: Several years ago, there was a fantastic but excruciatingly overlooked collaboration between yourself and a little-known artist, Steffi Thiel, on Durtro. Who is she to you, and how did you come to work with her? Can we expect more music between the two of you in the future?

MC: Steffi Thiel was my girlfriend for a long time. She’s German and the reason why I live in Berlin now. She has a really wonderful singing voice; I’d often hear her singing around our flat and it was only natural that sometime we would make something together. The album had a pretty weird journey, really. Steffi wanted to make something but was having difficulty in making the music she wanted, so I gave her an acoustic guitar album that I recorded mainly for fun shortly before the birth of our daughter. These guitar pieces were never meant to be songs in any way—more like simple melodic pieces of music. She did an amazing job in writing English lyrics for them, especially as it is a foreign language for her, in fitting them into the existing structures. Later, I embellished some of the tracks with extra instruments, or simply replaced the guitar with piano or synthesizer. We won’t be making any other projects in the future, but I’m very pleased that we did get to make this album together.

HH: How has your personal opinion of your recordings changed over the years? Are you as proud of them now as you once were, or are there specific things that you wish you could go back and change? If so, can you point out anything in particular?

MC: My personal opinions of my recordings has changed over the years, or course. We are all expanding and constantly changing, and so do our opinions. I would not say that I’ve ever been particularly proud of things I’ve done in the past—I’ve always been pleased with them at the time, otherwise I never would have released them—but it’s always like letting them go and then trying to go forward into something new, better. Pride is not such a great thing when you are always striving for something of value. Sure, there would be things I would change now, but there’s not much point in thinking about it. It brings nothing, really, but if I do hear an old recording then I do sometimes think I’d do things differently now, but not always.

HH: While the likes of David Tibet, Douglas P., and Tony Wakeford have stood in the neofolk spotlight as founders of the genre, it may surprise you to learn that it is in fact you, certainly as much as these three, who I hear time and time again as the biggest influence and inspiration for many folks to come out of the genre. Even today, despite its obscurity, the music of Nature and Organisation endures and has influenced countless people—myself included—to hold neofolk high as more than just a musical experience. How does it feel to know that you’ve influenced so many people over the years?

MC: Well, firstly I am quite surprised to hear that. It’s nice of course, but I’ve never really been aware that I could be influencing people. Sometimes I do recognise it though, when people tell me at concerts, or when people write to me over Facebook, for example. Still, I find it difficult to accept, but it does makes a difference somehow. I have started to realise more the power of music, especially recently with the release of this reissue CD, that music I made over twenty years ago can still touch and move people because it is genuine. It is a pure reflection of me at that time, however flawed. Music is ultimately magical.
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Another 2015 Interview (Author: Andrew)...

1.) WHICH RECORD HAS HAD THE MOST PROFOUND INFLUENCE ON YOU?

Straight in with a hard question Andrew, wish I would have said no now. The first album I ever bought as a kid was Rattus Norvegicus by The Stranglers, so I’d say that. I love their first 3 albums, every 5 years or so I come back to them again. If were to answer another time then maybe Ziggy Stardust, or Forever Changes, but right now I’m back into my 5 year Stranglers phase. I wish you would of asked me for three songs I’d like played at my funeral, that would have been more fun….

2.) HOW MANY HOURS DO YOU SPEND A WEEK RECORDING/PLAYING/CREATING?

At the moment I don’t spend any time on music, I have too many emotional issues going on to be able to be creative right now.

3.) WHICH OF YOUR OWN CREATIONS IS YOUR FAVOURITE?

That’s difficult. The stuff I did as NAO, or with C93, Marc Almond, Antony and so on….I don’t know, because they’re not things that I ever play, I find it too uninspiring to listen too mostly. I’d have to say that everyone I’ve worked with has been a real pleasure and they created some extraordinary things, but the song Death Of A Dandy with Marc Almond gave me the opportunity to work with Tony Visconti who wrote the strings part for it and mixed it. That was a great honour for me, and a gift from Marc Bolan, but probably not my favourite song as such.

4.) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST REGRET?

Not being the person I know I could be. But also women, not the ones I shared time with, but those I didn’t get the chance to know, that I could have but didn’t because of my shyness, stupidity, insecurity, low self esteem and so on.

5.) WHAT DO YOU DO TO RELAX?

Smoke, drink and listen to music as loud as possible on Youtube. Explore weird thoughts and ideas, try and expand them, make them somehow real. I play a lot of psychological and philosophical games with myself and try and transform my daily life with them, and also imagining that situations are different than they are.

6.) OTHER THAN FRIENDS AND FAMILY WHAT IS YOUR MOST CHERISHED POSSESSION.

My body, my health, even though I do very little to take care of it.

7.) TELL ME THREE OF YOUR HEROES/HEROINES?

First, David Bowie. He works incredibly hard at writing songs, it’s easy to be lazy once you’ve got an amazing chorus and great verse, but he’s not, he works hard to drag out more, and that’s why he has written endless masterpieces. The way he changed as an artist, the way he looked, go to any city and see his influence on the way people look even now. Which other artist has changed so radically and so frequently like Bowie, and if you can think one then they were probably influenced by him. Second, Marc Bolan. I remember seeing him for the first time on Top Of The Pops as a little kid. The glitter on his cheeks, the clothes, the sleek feline femininity in which he moved and behaved, the seductivity in his music. Very different from Bowie in a lot of ways. Bowie had more self belief than Bolan and he started to crumble once stars began to fade. But his incredible talent and this vulnerability make him a very important figure in the opening up of musical expression and style also, the integration of them. The third one, let me think because there are suddenly endless amounts. My friend Henrik, he saved my life...

8.) WHERE IS YOUR FAVOURITE PLACE IN THE WORLD?

Walsall in England where I grew up, but a close second is Friedrichshain in Berlin where I live now. It’s definitely the easiest place I know where people can be who they want to be. But it’s hard being surrounded by all of the beautiful people that live here, it’s extraordinary but really difficult at the same time if you have problems with confidence, negative ways in which you perceive yourself. And extraordinary because of the way the that the night becomes infused with this intoxicating mix of wanting, energy, enjoyment, abandonment, sensuality, of letting go, of the dreams of happiness, the desperation of desire but also its fulfilment.

9.) IF YOU DIDN’T HAVE YOUR ART WHAT OCCUPATION DO YOU THINK YOU WOULD BE DOING?

Music has never been my occupation, it’s something I do to help keep my sanity and not a career. I come out of a working class family where the emphasis is on getting a job, earning a living, and that artistic things like music or painting are things that are for free time, for enjoyment and not for earning money.

10.) IF THERE IS ONE THING THAT YOU WOULD WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW ABOUT YOU THAT YOU HAVE NEVER CONVEYED IN AN INTERVIEW BEFORE WHAT WOULD THAT BE?

I’ve never thought about that…These questions have been amazingly difficult, good for an interview though. Maybe that I am not how people possibly think I am, from what they project on me. In my free-time I’m almost always alone. I spend a lot of time constructing ideas in my head that are connected with time, fantasy, emotion and physical reality and then trying to live them for real, to see if they create positive change. But I am still determined to party 7 nights a week no matter what restrictions the next day brings.

Manu Le Malin "Biomechanik" 1 & 2 4xCD DJ Sets 1997 & 1999


"Emmanuel Dauchez, born October 16th 1970, discovered electronic music in 1991 during a rave party presented by members of Planet Core Productions. He initially started mixing trance and techno in the early 1990s before focusing on hardcore [These CDs are V-E-R-Y hardcore  --S]. He built his reputation in the after-partys of the first Parisian raves. His dark style is partly inspired by the work of Swiss artist H.R. Giger. He has tattooed half of his upper torso in Giger's biomechanical style."


2019 interview... 

What does "Le Malin" mean? 

It's actually from a funny French movie, Les Frères Pétard (The Joint Brothers), from the '80s. Two losers in Paris try to make a hashish deal, and every time they fail. One of the guys is called Manu and in a certain scene his partner is saying: "Manu Le Malin, the guy who always succeeds." But it's a joke. It's a big joke. And for me, taking that name was a joke. My friend said, "We've got the flyer for the first party, do you have a name? You need a name." I thought, let's call myself Manu Le Malin then. It's just one time. It's just for fun. 

What party was that?

12 November, 1992. That was the very first official one. 

But you were playing illegal parties before that? 

A little bit. Not being booked, just turning up with my record bags. 

Can you take us back to that 1992 rave?

It was just so good that I am still doing it, still raving 25 years later. That's all I have to say about it. 

How did you start DJing?

I used to collect records way before techno. I had a collection of Trojan Records, some other soul records, ska, stuff like this. So I had some records and I was DJing without knowing it. At parties for friends I'd put some records on turntables and just played songs. Then techno happened. I had one turntable with no pitch. I bought another really cheap one with pitch, a mixer and some small speakers and started playing the same records over and over. But the music was the thing. When you come back from partying and you're in that psychedelic vibe and you just want to recreate it in your little room where you are living. That's how it happened for me. I went deep into the core, and I don't mean hardcore. 

What were you playing back then?

I was playing trance, house, dance music records, because my tastes were not made yet. I was buying records just because of the cover, or because I heard a song in a gay club. I have a collection of gay anthems actually, and I love it still. Like P.J.B.'s ‎"Bridge Over Troubled Water", a house version with a big vocal. They are the only records that are not lost somewhere in my apartment because I still have those in a little box I carry everywhere. It's like my guilty pleasure. That was not about the underground at all, I was just buying records. Then I went to Thunderdome, end of story. Thunderdome '93 changed my life. 

What was so special about Thunderdome '93?

30,000 people in one room, I had never experienced that before. 100K sound, never experienced that either. It was at the Jaarbeurs in Utrecht with the Octopus (ride) in the middle of the room. Everyone was dancing in the same way, dressed in the same way, and I thought, "This is it." I went there with a bus company that organised travel to parties from France. I heard something was going on in Holland, but I was not prepared. The next thing I know, it's the morning after and I'm wearing a red long sleeved shirt (I never wear colour) from Mokum Records that says: "No Racism, No Fascism." It's the afterparty and they're playing proper gabber, and I'm dancing like everyone else. I thought, OK, I've found my nest. I never became a gabber DJ at all, but the Dutch culture turned me from a hard techno-whatever DJ to a young hardcore DJ playing PCP and Industrial Strength. 

What was the early '90s hardcore scene in Paris like?

The scene was really active. We all knew each other, and we don't know each other...Parisian politics. The hardcore was really serious though [Godfucking right it was.  --S]. No cheese at all. That's a French thing: we eat the cheese, we don't play it. 

At the same time you were deeply into techno. In Sous Le Donjon, Laurent Garnier says there was a "turf war" happening between the early hardcore and techno scenes in France. Did you experience this?

If you're hardcore, you're hardcore, and that's it. You didn't go to clubs and listen to Garnier, as I did. But I said, "I'm going to do whatever I want to do, go wherever I want to go, and play whatever I want to play." I was playing techno, hardcore, playing at a club, a free party, no boxes, no labels. I was really connected to the illegal scene with Teknokrat, then Heretik, Infrabase, and recently Kraken. But I was also in the legal scene with the label (Bloc 46) and playing in clubs. I was doing le grand écart (the big split). I'm the Jean-Claude Van Damme of hardcore. 

Did you want to be a producer?

It was a logical progression. 

How did you get signed to Industrial Strength?

I met Lenny Dee really early, in '93. We had to do a CD together called Hardcore Vol. 2 on Fairway Records. That was my first DJ CD mix. We became great friends. He's my mentor, really. When I came back from Thunderdome '93, I was buying up PCP and Industrial Strength records. Then I meet Lenny. Then my first record lands on Industrial Strength. I was the happiest guy, and I am still really proud to be Lenny's friend. It's funny, that first record he made had so many mistakes in the credits. My name was spelt wrong. And Daft Punk was written wrong as well (as Draft Ponk). Thomas Bangalter did the record with me. At the time I had no gear. We did two tracks together, and you can feel it. He's an animal behind the machines. 

How did you meet?

I was a night owl, going from one club to another. At the time I was playing that first EP (The New Wave) on Soma which came out before Homework. I was playing this record at some party and Thomas was there. They were living in Paris, so I said let's meet in the studio. 

Do you prefer producing with other people?

I've been making music with Electric Rescue as W.LV.S. But now I'm having a new workstation installed in my place. No more analogue, no more gear with lots of dusting. Because of my terrible way of life over the last ten years, most of my gear has been lost or broken or was sold for gambling. So now I am starting from zero. I was on Cubase before, now I am starting with Ableton. I bought some gear, a 16 channel Faderport for the digital mixer and an Ableton Push 2 so I can use my hands. I have ten fingers. My eyes, forget about it, I'm blind. And I hope I can hear. Maybe not, I don't know. Maybe it's been so long I haven't done anything by myself that I'll be like, it's over. But I don't think so. I miss it. I miss it a lot. 

Why are you returning to solo production now, after so many years?

Better life, better way of life. No more gambling, no bullshit. I have my own apartment. I am not sleeping on my friend's couch anymore. I can buy some new gear and a new workstation. I have a lot of friends who helped me with this. Especially the Astropolis guys, they helped me a lot. They saved me. They grabbed me and dragged me out of the shit. I said, "Don't waste your time. I hate myself, I hate people," and all this bullshit when you are in the fucking pit. But they insisted. And thanks to them! 

Was there a turning point?

About four years ago or something? A lot has changed. I destroyed my life. It took me four years...with help...to be with you today. And the music was the key, of course. When you don't trust yourself any more and you don't trust people, music brings you closer together than you think. That's what music does: reunites people. I'm a DJ, I just play records. No big deal. I can stay at home and play for myself, but I play for people or I play in front of people. And in the last four years that has given me something back. I feel good about it. That's something that I lost a long time ago. 

Like a healing process?

Music patches up your bruises. I loved music from the first day. Before I was born, my mother was listening to a lot of music. She's probably the one that gave me this passion for music. We had a difficult way of life but she was always into music and I was close to her. There's a well known phrase: "Si tu veux faire entrer la lumière il faut craquer le crâne," which means, "If you want to let in the light you have to crack open the skull." Sometimes music can hurt you a lot. It can be really painful. But in the end, as I love to think, music will always help and be the last woman standing. 

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